OH actually I do.
I ran away before things get serious. -_______-
oh, what a coward.
Okay, so this is great!
I have been, erm, trying my best not to run away from difficult situations, and face it head on.
The keyword here is trying. Yes. Apparently my brain does not agree with what I set on doing.
Maybe left side and right side is arguing or something.
Anyway, my mind tends to flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy into the realms of lalaland. With all those nonsensical and impossible thoughts filling up my mind, it feeds on my insecurities. And seriously, I really hate the insecure side of me. I need constant affirmation from people to relax and calm down. It's irritating, and it made me feels dependent on people. Which I don't want to! Dependent on people means giving them the chance for you to suffer in hell. God, please no! yes. okay, so to solve this problem once and for all, I have to think of ways to stop my mind from thinking so much. Thus, having minimum insecurities. Therefore, resulting in a happy and not so crazy and grumpy Kang Ling. :D
One way, leave the world of social networking sites and technology altogether. so, I wouldn't have to think so much. I have taken the first step, and got stuck there. -____- sigh.
Second way, distraction. Apparently this wouldn't work. Ironically, i'm a person who is easily distracted. Even with a distraction (perhaps reading a book), I came across some words that sparks off one particular thought. And there will be no end to it. Sigh.
Third way.... cant think of any third way. sigh.
Let's just say, I am going to have a fight. With myself.
I'm my own worst enemy. so if i win, good for me, and the people around me.
If i lose, don't be sad. I won't let myself lose :) I HOPE. LOL.
I survived without sleeping for one day.
:| go go.
