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Bye msn
Sunday, February 27, 2011

Took my second step.

I quit msn.




AH. you suck



Fight

I have no idea, and i have actually forgotten how I survive through secondary school.
OH actually I do.
I ran away before things get serious. -_______-

oh, what a coward.
Okay, so this is great!
I have been, erm, trying my best not to run away from difficult situations, and face it head on.

The keyword here is trying. Yes. Apparently my brain does not agree with what I set on doing.
Maybe left side and right side is arguing or something.
Anyway, my mind tends to flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy into the realms of lalaland. With all those nonsensical and impossible thoughts filling up my mind, it feeds on my insecurities. And seriously, I really hate the insecure side of me. I need constant affirmation from people to relax and calm down. It's irritating, and it made me feels dependent on people. Which I don't want to! Dependent on people means giving them the chance for you to suffer in hell. God, please no! yes. okay, so to solve this problem once and for all, I have to think of ways to stop my mind from thinking so much. Thus, having minimum insecurities. Therefore, resulting in a happy and not so crazy and grumpy Kang Ling. :D

One way, leave the world of social networking sites and technology altogether. so, I wouldn't have to think so much. I have taken the first step, and got stuck there. -____- sigh.

Second way, distraction. Apparently this wouldn't work. Ironically, i'm a person who is easily distracted. Even with a distraction (perhaps reading a book), I came across some words that sparks off one particular thought. And there will be no end to it. Sigh.

Third way.... cant think of any third way. sigh.

Let's just say, I am going to have a fight. With myself.
I'm my own worst enemy. so if i win, good for me, and the people around me.
If i lose, don't be sad. I won't let myself lose :) I HOPE. LOL.

I survived without sleeping for one day.
:| go go.






Be kind
Thursday, February 24, 2011

(Source: A)

Be kind. You have no idea what difference you can made to someone's life. Good or bad.

I know some of the readers here, have their own difficulties.
Because of some reasons, they just have to bring people down using words.
Perhaps doing that makes you feel better, and more confident.
Everyone have the right to feels good about themselves.
But by making people feel bad, to make yourself feel better, it's wrong.
Stop doing that.





SCREW BLOGGER
Tuesday, February 22, 2011

BLOGGER SUCKS.




Walls of insincerity.

Suddenly thought of some random things.
Make me goes from :| ---> :(


four days cooped up at home. i think my brain abit sot already.

so tmr going sch for fun. i craving potato salad with tuna anyways.

BYE.


GLEE
Monday, February 21, 2011

yeah, it's glee.
I am watching Glee from season 1 all over again.
Glee make me happy in a good way.

They dare to be themselves and stuff, it makes me happy. :)

I have difficulty concentrating and studying for exams. ohmygod. nonono.
mind over matter.

I WILL, I CAN, I MUST. JIAYOU!


I need an enemy. -___- i need an enemy to motivate myself.
OKAY. i think i have already found one. HURHUR

Dianna agron

she is beautiful, with a unique voice.


Crazy?
Sunday, February 20, 2011

I THINK I AM GOING CRAZY.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
And it is not helping with all those old songs. I NEED NEW SONGS IN MY ITUNES/ITOUCH.
wan cry already.
I WANT TO EAT PIZZA. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE.












i hope i get my sanity back. ASAP.


2nd day
Saturday, February 19, 2011

Of staying at home and not going anywhere.
Why stay at home?
To study of course.
I studied for so long yesterday!
whew. But only managed to do a mindmap on one chapter. how sad. :( and a very very messy one that is.
sigh.

Then today is super duper unproductive.
Okay lah, i jus decided today should be rest day. AHAHHA. excuses i know. nvm nvm.
so today, i catch up on all the shows. Gossip Girl, Criminal Minds, HIMYM, TBBT. I watched Sex and the City movie 2 already. HAHAHAH. DENISE & JING SHAN & LITING, sorry to disappoint, but not as much sex scenes ah. AHAHHA. okay lol. i literally skipped all the m18 parts. i'm a good girl. LOL.

then yst i watch 我的野蛮女友 as recommended by Jian Xiong. He said that he cried when he first watched it, so i prepared myself. END UP NEVER CRY. ONLY TEARS IN MY EYES. MUAHAHAHAH. i grew stronger. :D

went to do some personality tests also. I AM TOO BORED OKAY. lol. and it sorts of makes my day. My day started off bad bad bad. urgh *shakes head* because of my brain overworking overnight thinking some stupid stuff. thus, making me feel very bad and sad this morning.

but oh well, I DECIDED I SHALL NOT BE AN ANGEL ANYMORE. AHAHHAAH.

i am now currently known as HO KANG LING THE CAVEMAN, OR WOMAN. whatever.

NO FACEBOOK, NO HANDPHONE! soon, it will be no twitter. I THINK I WILL DIE W/O TWITTER. twitter have become part of my life, i can vent. without any, ermm people judging me? LOL.

AND I CANNOT FIND MY SEC SCH BLOGSKIN. SORRY. :(
i really love that blog skin. uhhh. sigh. nvm.

I SHALL GO WATCH NANNY MCPHEE NOW.


P.S. Absence makes the heart grows fonder. But in my case, absence makes me go crazy.

JUS SOMETHING RANDOM. bye~


I'M NOT PERFECT BUT I KEEP TRYING.
Friday, February 18, 2011

"The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you"
------------ Enchanted, Taylor Swift

"You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you
Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you"
------------ I'll stand by you, Carrie Underwood

"And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe"
------------- One of us, Glee Cast.

"What's the secret
That you've been hiding
And who's gonna take my place
I've seen the picture
I thought this love would never end
You should have called me
When you were lonely
When you needed me to be there
How was I to know?
You never told me
About the pain and the tears"
------------- Fool Again, Westlife

"It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself."
------------- Perfect, Hedley.


"Cause we can try to end these wars
I know that we can make it right
I dont wanna fight no more
I forgot what we were fighting for
And as lonely as its in my heart
Wont let me be apart from you
I dont wanna have to try
to live without you in my life"
-------------- I Don't Wanna Fight, Westlife.












Thursday, February 17, 2011

Last day.




RELIGION
Tuesday, February 15, 2011

If God had a name, what would it be
And would you call it to His face
If you were faced with Him in all His glory
What would you ask if you had just one question

Yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home

If God had a face, what would it look like
And would you want to see
If seeing meant that you would have to believe
In things like Heaven and in Jesus and the Saints
And all the Prophets and...

Yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home

Tryin' to make His way home
Back up to Heaven all alone
Nobody callin' on the phone
'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome

Yeah, yeah, God is great
Yeah, yeah, God is good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

What if God was one of us
Just a slob /like one of us
Just a stranger on the bus
Trying to make His way home

Just tryin' to make his way home
Like a holy rolling stone
Back up to Heaven all alone
Just tryin' to make his way home
Nobody callin' on the phone
'Cept for the Pope maybe in Rome

--- One of us, Glee Cast version
* * * * * * *
If seeing meant that you have to believe, would you see?



valentine
Monday, February 14, 2011

HAPPY VALENTINES PEOPLE.
so went to sch for speech comm.
i screwed up my interview.
I TRIED TOO HARD. HAHAHHAHA. okay shall not elaborate.
total fiasco.
after that went to HMS office to meet ms faith to get results, after that
proceed to CATHAY for double dating~

JING SHAN, YAXUN, DENISE AND ME.
yay.
we went to watch the movie, just go with it or something.
HAHA. it's okay lah. WAAA. THE MOVIE THEATER IS FULL OF COUPLES.
one pair started kissing. LOL.
hurur. then there is a guy sitting in the same row as us, ALONE. ON VDAY. WATCHING ROMANCE COMEDY. WITH A DEPRESSED LOOK ON HIS FACE.
AWWWWW. yeah we infer that he has perhaps broken up with his gf, and is depressed.
LOL.
we considered the option of counselling him. HAHHAHA.
okay. then the movie started.

LUCKILY NO COUPLES PDA-ED WHILE MOVIE IS SCREENING. :D

ooh! plus, there is a couple sitting right beside me. DENISE say they are on their first date because they seems shy. girl is pretty. heehee. okay, then at the second half of the movie, out of the corner of my eye, the boy gave the girl his jacket!!! even tho the girl did not asked for it. awwww. SHO SWEET. yeah. hahahha. not bad right. such guys still exist. HAHAHAHA.

okay. movie ended.
Jing Shan eyes is getting from bad to worse, so she has to go back home first to visit the doctor. :(
JING SHAN GET WELL SOON. :( I BLESS YOU ALREADY.

so me yaxun and denise went walking around plaza sing.

OHHHHH!!!!! while walking to plaza sing from Cathay.
i saw someone. YES. WORLD IS DAMN SMALL. -____-
denise stunned there. HAHAHAH.
okay then we went to loiter around plaza sing.

i actually calculated the number of couples. there are 135 couples that i saw within 30 mins.
YES. IT IS DAT EXAGGERATING. :S
after that, was too lazy to continue counting. there is too many couples around.
after that went home.

i sat waiting at the bus stop for 1 hr for 700A.
LOL
WE LEFT PLAZA SING AT AROUND 6.44.
i reached home at 9.15
HAHAHAH. i saw junze and his GAP on the bus. i also dk what is gap. but i think its a name he made up for girlfriend. oh well. HAHAHA. such a small world. i know. -___-

OKAY I AM GOING TO COOP AT HOME AND STUDY THE WHOLE DAY.
SHALL NOT EVEN ON MY COM.

i should go and bathe and start studying.

TO JEANETTE: CHEER UP.
>




SHOPPING
Sunday, February 13, 2011

WENT TO jurong point to buy formal clothes.
:)

before that went to eat long john silvers breakfast.
then proceed to JP G2000 to buy my long sleeve shirt.
hurhur. in the end don have my size.
okay. so it's VDAY EVE.
COUPLES EVERYWHERE~
bye. LOL.


FLY.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011

okay.
so yesterday after stats lesson, yaxun, jing shan, denise, and me went to find mr jon lee for the Project Helping Hands (PHH). Jayne tagged along! :D

By the way, Stats lesson is damn torturous. i almost killed people. shall not elaborate.

Before that, yaxun have to go to the hms office to get some dk what for the PHH. so, Denise, Jayne and I stayed at the lobby of blk 53. I bought a small cup of coffee from the vending machine. Extra cream and extra sugar.

Then!!!! we saw something amazing!

An uncle who worked as a cleaner in NP, is using a large brush with water to write calligraphy words on the floor!!!!! and trust me. The words are so nice!!! he go a talent yo~. hahaha. I took three photos.
Then, i think because of the coffee extra cream and sugar, i felt happier and chattier. So i decided to talk to that uncle. He was just about to leave the place. As he walked past me, I said, " Uncle, your words very nice leh!!!"

Then he smiled and talked a lot of things to us, which, sorry to say, I don't understand a thing. MUAHAHA. okay nvm. so, I jus smiled and praised his work one more time. :)

I TOOK SOME PHOTOS OF HIS WORK!

okay. Then after yaxun and jing shan came down from the office, we went to the student plaza.
We set up the booth and such. Then, we go around asking for donations. :D

YAY! lazy elaborate. hahaha.
my duty ends at 3. But we do till 3.30, because jon lee is nowhere to be found. :(
hurhur. then i wait till 4pm.
and then went over to the bus stop opposite NP, to take 52 to go IMM.

OH!!!. THEN when i come home from IMM, it began to rain. VERY VERY BIG. yeah. then as i alight from the bus, there is a gap between the bus and the bus stop. then the gap there have a big big puddle of murky dirty muddy water. of course, i jumped. i followed how my friend jumped. And then, as I leap gracefully into the sky, just when i was about to land, i slipped and fall. i knelt down on one knee. haii. epic fail. so throw face also. :(

OKAY BYE.



LESSON TIME NOW
Monday, February 7, 2011

IT'S STATS LESSON NOW.
and i am blogging. LOL

yeah very pro i know.
hurhur.
I was multi tasking!
Okay i TRIED. but I failed.
I missed out some of the answers as I was reading people's blog
HAHAHHA i don't even know them lah.
actually is her. I don't even know her.
HURHUR

but you know, you can know quite much about a person by the way they blogged
This girl, has poor grammar HAHAHAHHAHA
lol. but i have no right to judge. *looks at my sentence structure and grammar* MUAHAHA FAIL.

anyway, but she is a very responsible and an active member in her school.
So many commitments. Friendly, high, enthusiastic, falls sick easily, HAHAHAHHA.
i feel so stalkerish.
hahhaha.
but as I have mentioned earlier, I don't know that girl, so I have no right to judge. heehee.

I am not disclosing that girl's identity here to protect her privacy. HHHAHAHAHA
I am crazy.
okay. stop.
i think i should change my blog skin.
i don like how i can't change the colour of my font. :( and the size also not big one.
HAHAHA SO I THINK I WILL CHANGE TO MY OLD BLOGSKIN. THE ONE I USED IN SECONDARY SCHOOL TIMES. :) HEEHEE. STAY TUNED.

LATER GOT HI CLUB REHEARSAL!

And I am hungry.

OH!
and a shocking news to everyone.
My weight has increased by 4-5 kg over the holidays.
ohhhh yeah. that means Doughnut is 5-6 months old already.

I think I borderline overweight, so I decided to go on diet.
YEAH!

I want to lose at least 6 KG by end of semester 2.
Or else I cannot eat pizza. :(
HAO DE.

Eh, because of this, i did not eat ANY SNACKS yesterday night.
I almost caved in. BUT I DIDN'T. PRAISE ME!!!!!!

HHAHAAHA.
hungry. -___- urgh.



CHINESE NEW YEAR
Friday, February 4, 2011

this year new year suck maybe except for the food that is okay.
but, no new year feeling at all.
when get ang bao also like :| face.
dots.

2011 is gonna be a bad year for ppl of zodiac chicken.
i don't believe such things lah, but kinda of a bummer eh.
sigh.

I hope everything will take a better turn soon.
Talked to some of my friends, they all are having their own sort of problems
gosh.
lets jus hope everyone will be happy, and all would be well.

:\ <-- my face nowadays.


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