Laugh till you drop.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Breakfast at Greenridge yesterday.

Hotdogs, ham and scrambled eggs with toast and coffee.

IT IS DAMN NICE!! um, then had roti prata. not that bad.

But, I think I prefer NP MP de roti prata. hahha.

After that went home, and used computer till 1pm.

then prepared to go 313 to distrubute balloons!

So took 190 and met denise at the mrt station, and then went to find the other [people

so we pumped and tie and pumped and tied the balloons for whole three hours.

OHHHHHHH

after that went and tried YAMI YOGHURT!!!!

peach with fruity pebbles. heehee. not bad not bad. :)

oh and tried chewy junior too. it's erm, not worth the money tho. :\

Then went back to plaza and eat Long John Silver for dinner.

And then went home.

Boring much.

I am going to start on my IP report before Jayne kill me.

The part I am responsible with is 20% ohhhhh~ stressed.

bye.

Who will be there?

Friday, January 28, 2011

Everyone is busy with their own stuff. They have their own lives. Maybe this is just the egocentric side of me acting up. But, sometimes I really really, don't bother saying anything about myself. I know there are people out there who care about me. I know there is. But people always get tired of you after awhile. They always do. You can't blame them. They have their own friends to worry about, they have to spend time on their studies. You cannot expect them to always to be there for you.

I am strong.

I am really really strong.

I will stay strong.

I have been through this before, this is nothing compared to that.

Even if there is no one there for me, I will still be strong. For myself.

MUAHAHHAAH emo post!

:) don't worry tho, i will be fine like after a few mins or so. hahah. :)

REPLY TO TAGS.

DENISE: WHY YOU NEVER REPLY TO MY 'SUP DUDE' TAG

Hee hee, Denise is a wise young lady

DENISE: That's like, the name of my wordpress and tumblr. Fate and destiny. GREAT WORDS.

PLEASE NO. EVEN MANDY ALSO AGREE ITS NOT TRUE.

QINGREN: HEHE! <3>

I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ANGELIC PLEASE. I AM AN ANGEL OF HAPPINESS, SPREAD PEACE AND JOY TO EVERYONE IS MY MISSION ON EARTH HAHAHAHHAHA.

mandy: Thursday 27 jan's post! (Y)

IKR!!!!! LOVEEEEEE FOREVER. <3<3<3

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Fate and desiny.

"If it is meant to be, it will be."

I used to believe in this. Today, I realized it's just bullshit.

What do you mean if it's meant to be.

Fate and destiny. They are just two bitches with nothing else better to do than to screw your lives up. make you all sad and disappointed, and giving up.

BUT, I won't let them screw mine up. I am stronger than they think.

If life give me rocks and boulders to block my path, I will smash them into small little pieces with my parang. -___-

I won't be that weak meek little girl that is scared of taking actions, and changing my life around.

I will be strong, and dare to take a big step forward.

If you want to make a difference to other people lives, CHANGE YOURSELF FIRST.

I will not be beaten down so easily anymore.

I will fight. Fight for my own rights, for my loved ones, and for everything that I believed in.

Fate and destiny?

I OFFICIALLY DECLARE WAR WITH YOU.

Hero.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Watch this video.

See how some words you said could change someone's life.

See how one small little action you could do that would save someone's life.

This is not fake. This is reality.

All of this are happening all around us.

People are dying.

Be kind, you have no idea how much that would meant to someone.

To those who are depressed, be strong and stay strong.

There are people out there who cares. There will be.

HMM.

Everytime I take a bus ride, I looked at those people walking by on the sidewalk.

Some have their earpiece on.

Some are chatting with their friends.

Some have the spaced out look on their face.

Some are talking on the phone.

Some are with their partners.

Some are deep in thought.

I have always wondered how is their life like.

Are they worrying about their family?

Are they happy that they have finally finished an important presentation?

Or are they depressed about how their life have turned out to be?

HAHAH. i am so random. But yeah.

Anyway, I went to school today for stats.

I'm kinda getting used to not having a phone.

hahha.

It's inconvenient. But, somehow, I feel like I have more freedom.

HAHAH.

Like I am a free spirit. hahahah

yeah, so I was thinking if I really should get another pho

ne.

The only thing I worry about is that my parents. They still don't know I don't have a phone.

LOL.

uhhh, my battery is flat excuse is kinda cannot be used anymore.

hurhurhur. nvm, I will find other excuses. LOL

Anyway, I had a heart-to-heart talk yesterday with Denis

e while eating Macdonald.

It was awesome!

hahha. Saying out some things make me know myself more, and what I really wanted in my life. hahah. love denise♥

I know how it felt to be judged by strangers. So, I've decided to sto

p judging people. I am trying my best to not judge people just by what other people have said. and and and!!! I've not stalked people for days!!! MUST GIVE ME PRIZE LAH. to encourage me. hahahha.

Working towards to be a better person. I won't make excuses for myself anymore.

So what if I have been betrayed before? It doesn't give me the reason to hurt other people.

So what if I am stressed? It doesn't give me the excuse to flare up at people. ( Jian Xiong, sorry for my unreasonable tantrum. Uhh, but stop making fun of m

e and ruining my reputation luh. and stop disturbing Denise too, thanks-__-)

So what if I have been treated badly and being bitched by other people? It doesn't mean that I must continue the cycle, to hurt other people.

MUAHAHHAHAA. i feel so wise saying all these things. LOL. but, ohwell, that's how i think.

lol.

goodbye~

REPLIES TO TAG.

mandy: Kanglinggg I confess I stalk your blog heheeee. Your 18jan post is

please don't blame yourself

mandy: because we're all just humans!

mandy: LOVE LOVEEEE

MANDY!!! :D HAHAHAH thank you :D <3>

Jian Xiong: your last post hinting abt us??

Please. no. -__________-

alexander: haha at jiang xiong;s post. yeah i came to see ur blog.hi=)

alexander: whoops, my last tag i linked the wrong website

alexander: this is the one u should see

HAHAHAHA THANK YOU!!! ITS SO FUNNY. MAKE ME LAUGH. PPL CAN BE SO LAME. HAHAHHA :D

QINGREN: HAHA! *WINK WINK* GUY AND GIRL CAN FALL FOR EACH OTHER WOR~~

QINGREN: I TAG U MUST REPLY LEH...

HAHAHAHAHHA!!!! please! don't anyhow anyhow think. haahhah OKAY LAH REPLY LE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH <3>

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other…Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.”

Do you guys think it's true?

Up to you to decide. *BIGSMILE*

PEOPLE. TAG PLEASE. DON'T STALK THEN NEVER TAG. I WAN TO KNOW WHO READ MY BLOG.

IT IS VERY SCARY TO KNOW UNKNOWN PEOPLE READING MY BLOG. LOL. SO PLEASE LEAVE A TAG. ITS AN ORDER! HAHAHA. OKAY PLEASE LEAVE A TAG. BYE.

"You began to cry; just crying. The deep and ugly kind, the kind you lose yourself in, though you’re thanking God that no one has to see how rubbed and blotched your face becomes. Though some detached part of you also wishes there was someone there to see you now, to see and understand just how sad you are at heart. They don’t see it, and of course, you would never show them that side of you."

----(raindropsonmyroses.t____.com)

bad bad day.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Went to find the jacket i wanted for very long after school.

stupid.

went to 6 cotton on stores in total just to find that stupid jacket.

none of them have it.

super.freaking.sad.

sigh. come home, supposed to do my part for the project, end up sleeping.

ohhhgoshhhh.

then, after i woke up, still in the state of half awake and sleeping.

I realised i have changed so much. :\

i have become this mean, nasty girl. that judge everyone even tho idk them.

i keep on finding excuses for my rude and nasty thoughts.

Hoping it will make myself feel better.

it did. for awhile.

But aft that, i just feel damn disgusted with myself.

I am this faker, a hypocrite, that tell everyone i hate strangers who judge me, but I am the one judging people, hating them when I don't even know them. :\

There are three reasons to hate somebody

They want to be you
They see you as a threat
They hate themselves

For now, I think the reason is most probably the last one?

For some other people, for eg. ______, should be 2nd one bah. :\

urgh.

this kind of hatred is making me hate myself more.

And thus, becoming a cycle.

sigh.

I just want to sleep.

Sleep is the only way to escape everything for jus a mere few hours.

BUT I HAVE SO MUCH THINGS TO DO. :\

sigh nvm.

goodbye.

MIXED FEELINGS

Friday, January 14, 2011

I guess i am kinda relieved. I won't get debarred after all. YAY.

hahha.

I have been known for my stalking. ( Yeah, and once you are on my radar, you are so dead. I will stalk you, until everything is out.) And, I told Denise, I will abstained from stalking unless I got a gut feeling something is going to happen. But my gut feelings are always inaccurate. <-- i am quite sad about this. Okay anyway, I AM PROUD TO SAY I HAVE NOT STALK UHHEHHMMMM FOR LIKE 2 DAYS. and its an achievement :) i should get a encouragement award or something. HAHAHAH

Okay another thing, I AM TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH STRAWS. i swear! once i have a straw in a water bottle. i can drink up to 5-6 bottles of water everyday. 500ml hor. not those small small act cute water bottle which ppl uses as an accessory instead of drinking form it. -____- yeap! i drank like 6 bottles. so proud of myself. But the problem of drinking so much water is that YOU WILL HAVE TO RELEASE EVERYTHING OUT. yeap. so i went to the toilet so many times its embarrassing. -__- I was at ourspace yesterday and i went to the toilet for like i swear, about 7-8 times. -___- it's like i have bladder problems or something. LOL.

oh well. for better complexion, i have to drink more water. LOL. HAHAHA PIMPLE FREE AND SMOOTH FLAWLESS SKIN. :D hahahah.

Thats for the happy parts of my days recently. The sad and tragic part, I have so much projects, that i see my project mates longer than i see my mum. that is how long i spent my time with my project mates. I have to stay back for this whole week. OH DID I MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVED THE ATTIC??!?!!? ITS LIKE THE BEST!!!!!!!!! I TOTALLY CAN DO MY WORK THR. W/O GETTING DISTRACTED (Y) okay. ourspace sucks. i hate it. lol.

Okay back to topic. We have so man projects.and seriously? i am getting sick of it. :S Recently i am so tired, i went home and just sleep. without watching any shows or talking on msn. this is how serious the problem is. I am just so tired. and the projects is never ending. i can't wait for semester break.

Did i mention how much I hate people comparing me with other people? ONLY I CAN COMPARE MYSELF WITH OTHERS. YOU SHUT UP PLEASE. i totally hate it when people ask me to stop being depressed and think about those poor kids in Africa and stuff. I mean I know I am more fortunate than they are. But I am just saying that, people here in Singapore, in those developed countries have their own sets of problems too, and we have the right to be sad and depressed about stuff that is troubling us. Please, if you asked us to shut up and say that we have no right to be depressed because we are much better than those people in Africa, you are just implying that we have no problems.

Just because we have roofs over our head, doesn't mean we don't get bullied by people in our school.

Just because we have food, doesn't mean that we are not facing any stress from our studies.

Just because we have everything that are needed for survival, it doesn't mean that we are not depressed about other sorts of thing.

But do the people in Africa faced the stress we are facing in the developed countries?

Do they get bullied by other kids just because they looks different?

Do they have peer pressure?

I have no idea. I think more or less, there will be. But, the problem can't be as serious as the problem it is in the developed countries.

seriously. I know they are sad and unfortunate. And you may think i am an ungrateful bitch just sitting in my room complaining about everything. But seriously, I think that everyone have the right to complain. Everyone needs attention every once in a while. But I am not saying that you should be depressed about every little small thing in your life lah. For example, i didn't get the snsd cd. FML. <-- that is just lame. I am just saying that those people who have been hurt before and they are facing problems and are getting depressed over it kinda thing. They have the right to be depressed too. You cannot just say that, YOU HAVE FOOD. YOU HAVE WATER. YOU HAVE HOUSE. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE DEPRESSED PLEASE.

STOP YOUR BULLSHIT. IT JUS PISSES ME OFF AT HOW PEOPLE ATTITUDES CAN BE. DON'T TELL ME YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN DEPRESSED BEFORE. lamer. so shut up please.

zzzz. oh and by the way, disclaimer. i am not saying that the kids and those who are less fortunate than us don't need help. I am just saying that people have the right to be depressed, and those who are depressed also deserved help too. thank you.

THINKING.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

"What if one day, you wake up and realise everything that you believed in and lived for are all just bullshit and lies?" What would you do?

Consider the following options.

1. Cry

2. Scream

3. throw a tantrum and say that this can't be true

4. Live in denial

5. Just don't care

6. Hunt those people that lied to you.

So which will you choose?

For me, TBH, I will hunt those people down, made them pay for what they did, and then go on living my life. Yeah. I am a scary person. LOL. You dare hurt me or any of my friends. I will make you pay. Oh i am very serious. *angelic smile* dots. tsk.

I ponned my speech communication lesson today.

Bad bad feeling now. gosh... i will not do it again. :(

NOW I KNOW WHY I WILL HAVE BAD FEELING. BECAUSE I JUST CHECKED MY ABSENCE SUMMARY. I WAS LATE TWICE. THEN THEN THEN, I FORGOT TO MARK ATTENDANCE FOR ONE LECTURE. THEN NOW ITS LIKE I WAS ABSENT FOR THREE TIMES THEN I THINK I WILL GET DEBARRED FROM SPEECH COMMUNICATION. I THINK I AM SO DEAD. I CAN JUST GO JUMP DOWN AND DIE NOW. SO NOW MEANS I AM ABSENT FOR 4 TIMES. OHMYFREAKING GOD. I AM DAMN SCARED NOW. SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. DAMN DAMN DAMN. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. I DONT WAN TO RETAKE PLEASE. NEVER.

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