stupid.
went to 6 cotton on stores in total just to find that stupid jacket.
none of them have it.
super.freaking.sad.
sigh. come home, supposed to do my part for the project, end up sleeping.
ohhhgoshhhh.
then, after i woke up, still in the state of half awake and sleeping.
I realised i have changed so much. :\
i have become this mean, nasty girl. that judge everyone even tho idk them.
i keep on finding excuses for my rude and nasty thoughts.
Hoping it will make myself feel better.
it did. for awhile.
But aft that, i just feel damn disgusted with myself.
I am this faker, a hypocrite, that tell everyone i hate strangers who judge me, but I am the one judging people, hating them when I don't even know them. :\
There are three reasons to hate somebody
- They want to be you
- They see you as a threat
- They hate themselves
For now, I think the reason is most probably the last one?
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For some other people, for eg. ______, should be 2nd one bah. :\
urgh.
this kind of hatred is making me hate myself more.
And thus, becoming a cycle.
sigh.
I just want to sleep.
Sleep is the only way to escape everything for jus a mere few hours.
BUT I HAVE SO MUCH THINGS TO DO. :\
sigh nvm.
goodbye.
