if i say it out, you all probably will "Cheyyy only like dat"
okay. so i shall not say it out in case it make me worse.
to that stalker out there, who is finding things to scold and judge me on this is for you:
YES I AM EMO-ING. SCOLD ME WHATEVER YOU WAN.
haii.
and in this case, i am not the victim. i am not the audience.
i am the one who is hurting people.
a few weeks ago....
I am very very happy with my life.
I got wonderful new friends, awesome classmates, and great timetable
wonderful social life. I feel happy.
It's like i am on the peak of the mountain, and then everything start to go downhill.
i become too sociable.
I start to hurt the people i cared about, clearly knowing i will hurt them with my actions.
i still do it.
i am such a mean person.
They are the most nice people i can ever meet.
and i didn't cherish them
i deserve to die luh. :(
maybe being high and sociable is not my cup of tea.
i should just go back and be my quiet and shy kang ling.
which is not me. but at least it didn't bring so much trouble.
haii.
i hereby and now, shall apologise very very sincerely to the people i have hurt.
i am very very sorry.
i will make up to you in anyway i could.
i am so sorry.
Why am I so mean. I feel really very very miserable now. haii.
To my good friend, i hope you know who you are.
I am not kind, i know i am not.
this post probably is the best evidence.
I know you're trying to help me.
But i have to warn you.
I will probably hurt you just like how I hurt others.
And you are the 2nd last person i would wan to hurt.
please. i really really want you to be as far away from me as you can.
I cannot bear to leave such a nice and good friend like you.
But you are too nice for such a mean and bad person like me.
I will hurt you.
I will not leave you, because you are really really very very nice.
i know i am selfish and self centered. :(
So I pray and really really hope that you leave me if you don't want to get hurt by me.
But just so you know, this is your choice.
I am not forcing you to leave.
But if you stay, i cannot gurantee that i wont hurt you.
And either choice you make, i promise you, i will be there for you if you need me.
haii. end of such a depressed and emo post.
STALKER. HAPPY? MAKE FUN ALL YOU WANT IDC.
